This is what I have,and since I dont have my meds and haven't in a long while this may better explain why I am no longer around. I hope to get to a doctor in the next week or so  as this week same very possible life altering things are going to happen to myself and my family.

What Is Bipolar Disorder?

Bipolar disorders are one of several medical conditions called depressive disorders. Depressive disorders affect the way a person's brain functions.

Depressive disorders are widespread. In the United States alone, it's estimated that more than 17.4 million adults have a depressive disorder each year. That works out to about 1 out of every 7 people, so there's a good chance that you or someone you know is dealing with a depressive disorder.

Bipolar disorder goes by many names: manic depression, manic-depressive disorder, manic-depressive illness, bipolar mood disorder, and bipolar affective disorder are medical terms for the same condition.

Bipolar disorder is classified into four different types: Bipolar I, Bipolar II, Cyclothymic Disorder, or Bipolar Disorder Not Otherwise Specified. Mental health experts separate the condition into these four types because the symptoms of bipolar disorder show up differently in different people. When doctors know what type someone has, they can tailor treatment to that person's specific needs.

Not sure how severe my bio polar has become because of different things that have happend recently.

What is Anxiety?

Anxiety is a mind/body response involving cognitive, emotional, physical and behavioral components.

The symptoms of anxiety may include:

• Muscle tension

• Disturbed sleep

• Difficulty concentrating

• Fatigue

• Restlessness

• Irritability

• Increased startle response

• Increased heart rate

• Shortness of breath

• Dizziness

These symptoms may be persistent and may affect one’s ability to carry out usual life functions.

Anxiety is often a symptom of panic disorder and other anxiety disorders, and is highly correlated with excessive worry. Anxiety is common and treatable.

My anxiety is SEVERE  and I have panic attacks,anxiety attacks almost daily now along with  bouts of paranoia that have gotten much worse with the increase of my daughter's seizures.

So I hope this helps those that wonder why I am not around,I am in a cycle of depression and dealing with this without my meds has become hard for me to be online here or anywhere else. i will update all when I go back to the docotr has soon as I can get there. Any prayers are greatly appreciated and for those that have not deleted me Thank you very much.

For those that have and will delete me I understand completely.