| Gimme A Chance |
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It's funny how you think your so together convincing yourself that your
where you wanna be in life.You shut out the bad pretending to be happy
meanwhile you know your life is missing something but you blissfully
ignore those feelings because the pain from your past sends up warning
flares reminding you of why you are the way you are.Except for a two
week whirlwind affair with a fan of the band I haven't even asked
anybody out in almost two years.I put my personal life aside pursuing
my dream of being in a band and I thought I was happy.I'm not attracted
to alot of people for the most part alot of that has to do with my own
self esteem.After two pretty serious car accidents and living with the
aftermath of having surgery I just felt unwanted by anyone but I never
gave anyone a chance to come into my life either.I always shied away
because the pain I would inevitably feel wasn't worth it to me.I had
the mind set that I was gonna fail before I started.I'm tired of
feeling this way.It is a defeatist attitude and I'm trying to pull
myself out of this rut I'm in.Here's where the uncharted territory
comes in.I have no clue how to date anymore.I know I need someone in my
life because making someone proud of me is what I'm about.To achieve
the dreams I'm shooting for feels somehow empty because I'm not sharing
my accomplishments with anyone.Knowing this I am trying to come outta
of my self imposed exile from humanity.
It's very confusing to know
what to do.There is someone I like but I'm not sure how to proceed.I'm
impatient by nature and this trait works against me far to often.I want
her to know I like her so that she feels confident that I wanna be a
part of her life but I don't want to feel or have her feel I'm trying
to force my way into her life.The exhiliration I felt when I met her
was awesome but now the trepidation I feel about trying to gain her
friendship makes me nervous and all that so called confidence I thought
I had has been thrown out the window.I'm trying to slow my mind down
and just see where it takes me.I realize life isn't black and white
anymore that we primarily live in the grey areas and muddle our way
through.I want to pursue this girl and pursue the long dead feelings
inside that in the end you really can't hide from but I don't wanna
push to hard and scare her away in the process.What is the fine line
that can't be crossed?I can't answer that.So know I am muddling through
hoping I don't make a stupid mistake or assumption because this is all
so new to me again.Wish me luck cause I feel like an idiot but in a
good way.
Part of the journey we all go through life is about
discovery it's where I find my inspiration from as an artist and a
writer.Realizations are the base from where I draw my material I
write.My job as a writer is to instill emotion reach down into your
soul and make you take a look at yourself empathize with my
vulnerability and understand that inside us all we are not really all
that different.We all want the same things to be happy to feel
fullfilled with your life and to be remembered as a person who honour
and decency actually meant something to.I am opening myself up peeling
back the layers that are me so that when people who actually read this
shyt listen to my work they understand that my place on this earth was
meant to be on stage singing my stories, sharing my soul, healing
myself.This is not a moment of weakness but more of a rejoicing at a
rebirth.That I'm tired of living in the shadows and I'm coming to take
my place amongst the truly living .Feel happy for me I know I do! Cause
in my heart I know the best part of my life is yet to come!!That I am
gonna be exactly who I imagined myself to be.That my life will be
filled with passion and compassion cause thats exactly how I want it to
be.No more hiding, no more excuses, no more quaint justifications
trying to convince myself I should be less than what I aspire to
become.Success and failure go hand in hand it's just a part of life.I
don't need fame to be successful at the end of the day just self
respect.The ultimate goal is to throw off the shackles of the label of
being a man and become the best person I can be.And when I fall in love
and I look into the eyes of the person I'm in love with there will
never be a shadow of doubt in her mind that I'm hers and she can live
in quiet confidence holding my hand right beside me sharing our lives
together.I just need the chance to be that for you!!
Gimme A Chance
Who am I do you really know?
Or is it only what you heard
You think you know what I'm all about
To me that is just absurd
My friends poison you with their own agendas
They only care about them
All I'm asking is for you to find out for yourself
Who I really am
CHORUS
Gimme a chance to be the man I can be
Gimme a chance to show you the love inside of me
Life’s to short to hide behind uncertainty and doubt
So just gimme a chance to win your heart
And show you what loves about
Gimme a chanceX3
What do you see when you look at me
Why do you run and hide
Is it really me your running from
Or is it the fear you have inside
We've all been hurt many times before
Life is cruel and full of pain
Gimme a chance let me show you
Your heart can feel love again
REPEAT CHORUS
Fade out with gimme a chance X 5 ...To win your heart
WHISPERED (to win your trust)
Just Gimme A Chance |
| Posted: 11/1/2007 at 00:00 | Read 57 times | 3 comments | Leave Comment |
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