I haven't been on here much any way cause I have a lot of things going on in my life right now. but talking with my friends and sending have a good day comments to them or just saying hi made the days a little easier.
Oh well! I will be having back surgery on Tuesday Dec 16th.. He will be operating on the L1-L2 disk because this is the worse one right now. It is herniated and is compressing against the thecal sac in my spine.Their is a picture of the MRI in my pictures section.
On the outside:
I am grateful that I should be able to walk standing  straight up without having my upper body  uncontrollably  bend forward and backward on me. Being able to walk without the pain the the hip and leg increasing with each step will feel so wonderful.
But on the inside:
 Falling backward and not being able to stop myself scares the hell out of me. Having to yell catch me and hope someone is close enough isn't fun. But then their are times when I start to go and a hand of a friend or family member reaches out to me right away.
Yeah I know back surgery has its risks. Mine is a little more complicated due to my blood deficiency.I started taking an alternative blood thinner call lovenox. My last shot will be Monday morning. Thank god I wasn't stuck with the bill for these shots. 10 syringes of the medicine costs $4,000. No typo there folks.4 thousand dollars.

I don't know how long I will be away from the computer. I am hoping that when I get home from the hospital, I can get someone to help me get online. It will suck having my computer on the desk next to me and I can't use it. But who knows.Time will tell thats for sure. lol.

UPDATE:

After my surgery, I was experiencing symptoms that I didn't have before. The Dr. kept a close eye on things. On Jan 5th he ordered an emergency MRI. By 4:15 p.m. that day I was once again in a MRI machine. Alittle longer this time because they decided to use contrast as well. The Dr was calling during the procedure for an update. I finished the MRI and went upstairs to wait for the films. The receptionist immediately called my name and told me that my Dr. would like to speak to me. I knew it wasn't good. The Dr. told me something "popped" out and I needed to go straight to his office.

Jan. 5, 6:10 p.m. I walked into my Dr.s office. He showed me the MRI where the same disk herniated once again. He said that he was going to perform emergency surgery on me by the end of the week. I needed to be cleared by my PCP and Hematologist the very next day. I  had to find out how to get my blood level back down to normal by friday. Believe it or not that was the simple part. I just had to take a vitamin K pill on Wednesday and I would be good to go for Friday. Believe it or not Worker's comp wouldn't pay for the $5 vitamin K pill. So I got cleared by both Dr.s. Took the vitaminK pill on Wednesday. Had to sign all the paperwork on Thursday and be to t he hospital by 8 am on Friday morning.

Two surgeries  on the same disk in the matter of 24 days. How depressing. But still I had to keep the positive attitude.

My blood pressure was up. No wonder why. All the pressure and the pain I was in. I couldn't take any medicine for the pain. Of course we had to wait for the O.R. to open up. They never start on time. lol. I was wheeled into the operating room 2 hours late. Seeing familar faces and getting introduced to some new ones. I of course started joking around with all of them just like the first time. Before I went under my Dr. took each of his hand's and place them on each side of my face. He looked me straight in the eyes and told me "Don't worry I will take good care of you!" Finally I went under

I remember waking up in the recovery room and seen my Dr. He comes over and says, "Hey beautiful! the surgery went well. But he didn't like the way I was bleeding during surgery."....

The next thing I remember is opening my eyes and having a nurse telling me to just relax.. Ok. Whatever!lol. Close my eyes once again. When I had visitors that night they were concerned that I was in the progressive care unit. Well lucky me I had a drain put in my back. I spent the next 4 days in the hospital.

It was finally time to go home. It was stressed that I take it really easy. Hey no problem. I don't want to go in for another surgery.

When I went to my appointment, I asked why I was put in the progressive care unit. The one nurse told me that I had palpitations. The Dr. who seen me that day told me that my regular (spine) Dr. put me in there because of the bleeding. They also found a vessel that was bleeding and had to fix it too.

I continue to have some problems. Like the forward and backward motion has once again come back. I have no reason why.  I get to go back to the Dr's next week. So we shall see what's next... I will keep you posted...